Dec/Jan 2024 Aspire Magazine FULL Issue | Page 38

I knew it was awakening the impenetrable recesses of loss within me . As I tapped into these feelings , I realized it wasn ’ t the loss of something I had once had , but rather the loss of what never was . Holding my little girl in love , I let her cry uncontrollably and release her cleansing tears .

The song , “ I Made It Through the Rain ,” has become my anthem for my healing journey . It speaks to the strength of blessing and releasing , the despair and disappointment of a childhood that never was .

Looking at my life from a higher soul perspective , I realized my parents ’ chose difficult lives for their own soul growth . They were not emotionally mature enough for the challenging experience of parenting . Yet , they chose to be here on earth at this particular time so that I could be born .

The epiphany that came through the rain was that this was enough . It was the ultimate gift .

Until you allow yourself time alone to release your pain , you may not even realize that your body , especially your autonomic nervous system , holds on to pain and creates energy blocks . For example , you may experience pain in parts of your body , hold your breath , or have a nervous system in a constant state of anxiety . Healing your inner child , brings your wounds into the love of your heart where they can be exposed to the light and released .

Sometimes a crisis such as a serious illness , trauma , or loss compels you to lean into your vulnerable inner child and opens you to profound soul growth . But for many of us , daily life isn ’ t enough to awaken that kind of growth . Instead , the pain is left to build up for years , even decades , because it ’ s easier to ignore it than to sit with it and embrace it . Without release , however , these past wounds create chronic distress that can manifest as depression , anxiety , or physical illness . Only when our vulnerable pain is released can we bring about self-healing .